...is what I am not.
Hola mis amigos! I haven't posted in a while *surprise, surprise*......but I have had this idea for a post in my head. So, I decided it was time to finally blog it.
Sometimes I get really down on myself for not being the person I think I should be, or the person I think people want me to be. Does this happen to anyone else?
I think that is part of human nature. Why do we do such silly things???
I berate myself for how I say things, or the things I didn't say and should have...but didn't have the guts, or feared some type of rejection. I have a fear of messing up. I don't always like the way I look.....see, even models have insecurities. The list could go on and on....but I am going to stop and get on with the point.
So, because I was feeling a bit down, I started composing a silly list in my head of all the ways I may not seem perfect....but wouldn't change about myself. If that makes sense? Here goes....
1. I keep my Christmas tree up all year 'round (without ornaments) for a couple of reasons: A. I am lazy, and it is hard work to dig out the box it belongs in. B. I like the pretty lights on it....it adds color to my living room
2. I am a bit obsessive about cleaning my apartment/loft...but really could careless about cleaning my car. Sorry everyone who has had to ride in my car lately.
3. My sister says that when hanging out with me, I have a "2-day shelf life, and then I am expired" and she is right. On a side note, she is really excited for me to come visit her for a week at Christmas, again. :)
4. Sometimes the highlight of my night is playing solitaire on my Kindle for hours on end. Last night I literally spent 4 hours doing that.....I didn't sleep at all. ***That probably says a lot more about my life than anything.***
5. I binge watched the entire new season of Mystery Science Theater 3000 in two days...yep. **See #4**
6. If I ever get married, I want *NSYNC to come to sing "This I Promise You" at my reception. Lance Bass once replied to my tweet to him....so pretty sure that we are bff's and he will do that for me. And if I don't end up getting married....I am going to throw myself a party and have them sing it anyways....just for the awkwardness of it all. #nsycn4lyfe
7. I hate spiders, but I hate to kill them more, because I fear karma...and I don't want to come back as a spider only to have someone squash my will to live (literally). So, when possible, I will rescue spiders....screaming the whole time.
8. I can be very judgmental...but I am trying really hard to be better about that....it's a horrible personality trait....so maybe this doesn't belong on this list, since I actually should really change that about myself. But it is so hard.
9. I have a short-temper, which I like to blame on my ginger-ness, but really it's just a another horrible personality trait. But, I don't know if I would totally change it, because sometimes works in my favor. #truth
10. My selfie game is horrible....it usually takes me FOREVER to do a selfie. So what you are seeing when I post to Instagram/Facebook is the product of *sometimes* an hour worth of posing and awkward smiles.....along with A LOT of help from filters. *Fake it 'til you make it.*
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That's my list, thus far. I hope you enjoyed this little post. I guess the point I would like to bring home to myself and others who are maybe feeling a bit down about themselves too, is no one is "perfect." I know, that is so cliche to say...but it is so true. My motto for 2017 is "You do you."....and I realize that is also cliche...but I like it. So whatev's.
Life is to short to obtain what you think is "perfection"...You do you.
Thanks for reading friends! Hope you are all having a great summer! Remember: stay fancy and be kind.
